I keep having these dreams where I'm in a really decrepit apartment with bad plumbing problems. The apartment changes each time, but the theme of me desperately wanting to move out stays the same. Usually most of the time of the dream is spent in the bathroom. This time around I had moved into a very old house and the hippie girl who had lived there before had left some of her decor behind. There were plants hanging from the high ceiling right down into the toilet and bathtub. They were strategically placed so the bottom of the pot would be touching water at all times so no one had to water the plants. There were also these weird construction paper star ornaments hanging from the ceiling.

At one point I noticed the water in the bathtub was brown so I let it go down the drain, which caused the toilet to overflow and then there was another bathtub in the next room that collected some of the toilet water. Even when I turned off the valve to the toilet to stop the overflow, the water kept coming. I remember the tile floor of the bathroom was wet and I was barefoot. When I thought about calling the landlords to come fix the plumbing, I had a feeling they'd blame me for all the crap the other girl had left behind. There was also this grated hole in the wall where you could see outside, which is another symbol I've seen in my dreams--holes in the walls of the bathroom to the outside.

When I walked out into the living areas of the house, the whole high-ceiling-with-stuff-hanging-from-it theme continued. This time there were fabrics hanging draped from above, almost like the house had been TP'd with fabric instead of toilet paper. The main room itself was shaped like an attic, triangular with its sloping ceiling. The walls had built-in bookshelves that had very old books and yellowed papers bursting out of the shelves. When I saw those, I thought to myself that I had so much stuff and couldn't easily make another move.

I went back into the bathroom to check on the toilet situation and realized I had plungers and could possibly take care of the problem myself. Then something even better happened and I realized that I was dreaming and that this particular house was NOT my current apartment and that I actually DO live in a nice space.

From there, still seeing the toilet overflowing, I decided to start plunging it even though it was just a dream because it bothered me lol.



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What's that thing called when you add more to something after you've already written and shared it? An edition? Epilogue? I forget the word for it, but it's along those lines:

I woke up at 4 am and read this entry again and realized that the "hippie girl" who lived in the house before me WAS me (maybe). I was looking up some of the other symbols in an online dream dictionary and many of them were pointing to representing the past and possibly how I was emotionally or intelligently(?) in the past. She either represents me when I was younger (and more hippie-ish) or someone who just expects me to deal with all her shit because she pretty much left it behind when she moved out, all those brown bathwater and toilet-watered plants. Ew.

I told him about my bf, but i don't think he heard

Or maybe he really does just wanna be friends too. (But friends who do overnight wine tastings? He hinted that he'd want me to go with him next time.)

We've just been emailing at this point, which is funny since this is pretty much the most I've ever spoken to him. I don't want to be too (cell phone) texty with him because that's more flirtatious than email and I have to keep this strictly platonic in the I-think-you're-attractive sort of way. It's so easy to get carried away sometimes, but I've made enough mistakes in the past to know that they don't need to be repeated.

In other news, one of my other coworkers rode past me on the street on his motorcycle after work and shouted my name so I'd see him when he zoomed by. What a little show off lol. I think I should invite him to a concert my friend and I are going to in a couple months. Maybe I CAN actually have friends. OMG.